Yesterday started our first day of Winter Semester 2011. Mitch and I are both on-track for this semester (our school has a three-semester calendar that runs year-round; each semester is called a "track." You are "on-track" two out of three semesters, and "off-track" during the third). Mitch is on-track during the Winter and Spring tracks and I am on-track Fall and Winter. So, this is the semester that we are both on-track, although Mitch went full-time last semester as well.
I don't like school. I can't wait to be done. Mitch is much better at school than I am. We both struggle with crazy due dates around midterms, finals, etc., but he loves learning much more than I do. I guess that's why he's the one going to grad school next and I'm the one who's DONE after my bachelor's degree!
I am taking two classes online so I can try to work our little man towards a more concrete schedule. It's much harder to be home balancing even just two classes and a baby than I thought it would be! I wish he would sleep more soundly during the day. I already feel so overwhelmed! I need to cash in on the several babysitting offers i've gotten from friends and family.
I also feel like going to school with a little one is the best thing for me, but not for him. This has been a real emotional struggle for me that i'm trying to get over because I know i'm doing the right thing.
On a more positive note, we are incredibly blessed. We have family and friends that support our getting degrees, a perfect little boy to love on all day, and we can still afford to go to school. Because our school is run by our church and is a private school, the church is able to take care of a lot of the expenses that we'd be responsible for at a state college. We are paying very little, and are working hard to remember how blessed we are and what a great opportunity for education this is.
I hope this post wasn't too much of a downer! I had so many thoughts floating around in my head. This is about the closest I've kept to a journal, so I want to take time to write when it strikes me. Now my favorite picture of Nathan, for the moment at least! :o)
Alaina - you're second paragraph explains my feelings for my husband completely. Like school is great, and I see the importance of learning, but I'm not dedicated and good at it like Jeremy. He LOVES school! I'm just trying to get through to graduation lol. I'm amazed at you going to school with a little one! You're A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!
ReplyDeletelet me know if you need any help. right now i'm only working 3 hours a day until i can find another job or get more hours. and im not in school... so plenty of free time :)
ReplyDeletegood luck!!
Hang in there! I know it's tough, but it's so much better to get the craziness of school out of the way early. This way you'll be done before Nathan even remembers you were in school. You can do it!
ReplyDeletedoes this mean you won't be visiting kansas soon?
ReplyDeleteBUSY TIMES BUT VERY DOABLE(sp) YOU HAVE GOOD GENES OF ALL THOSE AHEAD OF YOU WHO HAD FAMILIES WENT TO SCHOOL. NOTHING BUT A BALD HEADS OF THE MALES TO SHOW FOR THE EXTRA EFFORT. NOW THE FEMALES I CAN'T SAY.
ReplyDeleteYOU CAN DO IT GRAND PA LARSON KNOWS YOU CAN.
LOVE GRANDPA LARSON
Dani--no, i'm still coming on Wednesday!! :o) I'll see you at church twice! And any other time we can arrange!
ReplyDeleteGrandpa--thank you so much! That is so encouraging!
I did a couple of classes/semester when Ezra was a baby (I just couldn't handle anymore when Georgia came along :P). It was a lot of extra work, but I found that I really enjoyed the squeezed in me-time it brought, even if it was doing homework. Good luck with it all!
ReplyDeleteSpeaking of Kansas, feel free to drop little man off sometime while you're here. Then again...I'm sure you'll have more then a couple of willing hands your way...so feel free to send a couple of those willing hands my way and I'll come help you hang pictures, etc for your mom ;) Seriously, though, if you guys need help with anything, I'm so close it'd be ridiculous not to use me!