This has Gotta be the Good Life

I've been loving this song for the past few months.

"The Good Life" by OneRepublic

Great, upbeat song; only one bad word, so buy the edited (radio) version!

(But the music video's very clean!)

It's also how life's going right now...good! Just good!!

We're keeping our heads above water in classes and getting good grades,

keeping work schedules straight and getting good hours,

some good language skills developing in little Nathan man, who babbles constantly with the best of 'em nowadays,

no more constipation issues for the little guy, which makes for good moods most of the time,

and we've now trained Nathan to sleep for 8-10 hours STRAIGHT, so we're getting GOOD sleep!

I am loving it! I have energy to do my homework, church lessons, and even energy to play with my little man and enjoy family time!

We did, however, have to completely Ferberize him. It was not our first choice, but was a great last resort. We hated to let him cry it out all night, especially with neighbors upstairs and downstairs (who we owe cookies...), but it only lasted 3-4 nights and then he was waking up once and getting himself back to sleep...then just waking up in the morning!

We feel like Nathan was a good candidate for the Ferber method because letting him cry it out meant that, once he got to sleep, he wasn't waking up any more than he normally did when I'd go in and comfort him back to sleep.

(I never picked him up out of his bed when I did this, but it was still proving to be more destructive for him than helpful!)

Now we all enjoy full REM cycles. Man does having sleep make a difference! He also puts himself down for naps within a couple minutes and doesn't even cry anymore!

Now when he gets sick or has some ailment where he needs extra help at night we'll know exactly how to get him back on track, and hopefully he'll get the message.

I read this week that 2 days or nights (in a row) of doing the same thing is all it takes to solidify an expectation for a baby. Hopefully if we have to Ferberize him again anytime soon he'll get the message in just 2 nights!

He's babbling like a fool and has also learned how to click his tongue. It makes him very proud of himself. He sounds like a little tribal baby: it's so cute, and hasn't gotten annoying yet :o)

He still loves his "whoozit friend" and doesn't sleep well without it. He loves to wrap his arms around it and rub it against his face when he goes to sleep. I think it's a perfect sleep toy because it's shaped to not block his breathing, but he can still cuddle into it.

(this was back in April at his GG and Papa Dooley's house, but he still pretty much sleeps like this!)
Binky in mouth (where it STAYS, very tightly, all night, talented kid!) and whoozit where it can be his friend. And his gloworm off to the side where it can sing. He's just recently started picking it up. I love to see him cuddled up to both of them!

Mitch and I are getting antsy for change, which is weird to us. We got a new entertainment center with yard sale money from selling our stuff last weekend, and we absolutely love this babyproof version. (We'll need a lock for the doors, but it has DOORS!) Nathan loves to watch his reflection in the glass doors. It's adorable.

So, I guess that's all the change we'll have for now. We're antsy to redo some piece of furniture or rearrange or whatever...I think it's because this is the longest we've gone since we were married without change! We moved twice in the first 6 months we were married; after 6 months we found out we were pregnant; (the 9 months of pregnancy don't count as no changes...every day's a change!); then we had Nathan in November, and now he's 7 1/2 months old! We love our apartment, our friends, our church congregation, our classes, etc. so no changes that way...

Oh, well...maybe we'll buy a plant.

Next on the agenda: how to bring some of that Midwest warmth my family and friends at home are enjoying to Rexburg!! We can't seem to get above 60! I want to splash Nathan and his friend Burton around in a kiddie pool!!

And now, as a reward for getting to the bottom of this post, here are photos of what we've been up to:
Learning how to pull up his rug
(must...get it into...my mouth!!)

Anything's a toy...i'm waiting for the day when he learns how to pull off the caps of all the pens and markers I let him play with! For now they're just drumsticks.

(wait, is that a tooth!?...haha yeah right. In this kid?)
Nope, no teeth here! He's sure using anything to work them up, though!

Can you tell that we love playing in our room, though?
This look is the closest I ever get to a smile...shock that I have my camera out.
He should know by now that I always have it out!
Love these baby sunglasses! I only wish we could go outside more to use them! He actually keeps them on!

Thanks for reading :o)

Nine Days

It's been nine days since I've updated our blog...and not much has changed since then! We have been super busy, though, so not much except for school and work and other non-interesting craziness has had time to happen.

Last week we found out we both had NO on campus classes this week!! How often does that happen? Even for this to happen to one of us is rare, but both!? Awesome. We REALLY wish we would've taken advantage of this free week and made a trip to Gillette, WY to see Mitch's family and take a break from life altogether, but we had too much going on outside of school!

So, the one week this miracle happens, we're too busy with other things to do anything about it!

I've been working hard on our complex's yard sale, making fliers, posting them in every floor of every stairwell, making posters/signs and posting about it on Craigslist. It finally happened today, and we're happy to report that we sold pretty much everything we wanted to, and our stuff sold really well! We were very happy and felt like our hours and work (and my sunburn) were worth it!

I have also been taking pictures of little man. However, I have also learned just enough about my camera to see the flaws in every picture. It's either a wrong color profile setting or f-stop level or composition. It's kind of annoying, because before I used to just see "cute," like any mother would!

Here are a few from the last week or two since i've posted:

Our trip to the nature park (Nathan loved it for about ten minutes, then fell asleep)
Gorgeous eyes...I won't tell you what I see wrong with this!

Ducky...
Flowers on the Temple grounds
(I cheated and sprayed them down...wet flowers are supposedly 10x more appealing than dry flowers)

The Rexburg LDS Temple...so pretty!
This was the best I could get from outside the gate because the Temple was closed
The Angel Moroni (I've talked about this gold-plated angel statue on top of every Temple before)
I surprisingly didn't edit any of this. I'm taking a break from editing at all so I can focus on taking better pictures to begin with. (This excludes turning things to b&w or sepia...the color profiles on the camera aren't as good as in Photoshop!)
(You can see how quickly I lost light between the last three pictures!)

Eating a favorite toy...

I love this kid...

"Guess How Much I Love You"
He has no patience for this (semi-long) book but I hope he gets the message!

No teeth here!

Can you believe I took this indoors with an in-camera flash? I love my flash diffuser!
I just wish I'd widened my f-stop so his little ears weren't so blurry!!

All this kid does all day is whine with his mouth closed. It's a high-pitched moan that gets on Mitch's and I nerves faster than anything else...
All. Day. Long.
Unless he's laughing or squealing so hard he starts coughing.

That's funny.

The Brighter Side of Things and Reading is FUN!!

The Brighter Side of Things

I feel like i've been sitting in a pile of self-pity. Nathan is somewhat of a challenge, but people everywhere have much bigger challenges with their infants that they have to try and figure out and overcome. Things that involve a lifetime of medications or physical/muscular therapy other invasive procedures. We don't have to deal with that. Nathan is pretty healthy, and we are so grateful for that!

Having said that, Nathan is so much fun! He seems like he will be the kid that loves attention. Our little neighbor boy is 6 months older than him and has been shy for quite awhile...he cried when everyone sang happy birthday and wanted him to eat his cake...that won't be Nathan!

Our boy loves attention. He will do anything to get it, and he will whine like crazy if he isn't getting enough. This makes committing myself to 2-3 hours of online homework a day pretty tricky, especially if Mitch is in class or at the library and can't toss some toys his way!

Nathan is getting very good at sitting on his own, rolling all over, pivoting on his stomach, pulling himself up onto locked arms, etc. He hasn't lifted himself onto his knees yet, but our entertainment center (and rest of the house) isn't anywhere NEAR baby proofed, so I'm not in a rush for him to crawl!

He is getting super cuddly. I don't know why; this especially happens when he's being a "computer baby" and sitting on my lap while I type. Earlier today he had both his arms wrapped around my arm giving me "kisses". I love it! When he gets tired he lays his head right on the table. It is hilarious!

Nathan doesn't like to smile at the camera very much; this big black camera is kind of intrusive, I think, and blocks just about my whole face. I'm getting good at just zooming out and snapping without looking, so I can smile at him and crop or straighten the picture later.


Reading is FUN!

Nathan loves, loves books! We read all the time, and he even knows how to turn pages by himself now! I love that he's sitting up well enough on his own to sit and "enjoy" (taste) a book on his own!


Because he loves books so much, we now have a book basket not only in his room, but in the living room too!


They are both full of flexible or board books, or the occasional photo album/"look book." He loves them all, but especially the ones that taste the best!


His favorite book to read before bed is Dr. Seuss's Put Me in the Zoo or the classic Goodnight Moon. Hungry Caterpillar is too long, and he doesn't like The Pigeon Has Feelings, Too! nearly as much as I like to read it to him (Mo Willems is my favorite!)


I love that he loves books now, just because it's a pile of colorful toys to play with. I hope I can keep the love of reading going.


I'm really picky about what I read and I tend to be overly-critical of books. Hopefully I can read enough in front of my kiddos to make them feel like it's an important thing to do every day!


We love you, Nathan! Sorry if we think you're a pill sometimes, but believe us when we say we love you more and more everyday!

PS--we're SUPER proud of you for sleeping from 10:30-6:00, then from 6:15-10:00! Let's repeat that tonight! (So far, so good!)

Disclaimer: remember how our little doll refused to sleep before about 1:30 am in the beginning? By moving his schedule slowly (and subtly), we've gotten him to a 10:15-10:30 bedtime. When I'm not in school at night we'll put him down earlier, I just hate missing bedtime!

Schedule Update and Progress

Well, it's been over a week since we started our new schedule.

And I don't think Nathan has ever slept less at night, poor kid.

Not to mention MOM has never been this sleep-deprived! Turns out I still hate mornings. And on top of that, a baby that wakes up every 2-3 hours, simply inconsolable, doesn't help!

We are loving the together time we get in the morning before Nathan wakes up. We miss the sleep we get, but this is making us go to bed at a decent time instead of doing who-knows-what until 1:30 am.

I love the time to get homework done for my Old Testament class. The independent study time in the morning really comes in handy (I love going to a church school so I can study religion every semester!)

A couple things have gotten in our way this week, but we're mostly doing just fine.

Also, my calves are feeling the burn! Maybe one day if I'm lucky I'll have Michelle Obama muscles :o)

As for Nathan, he's just not getting how to sleep. He's sleeping less now than when he was a newborn. After almost 7 months of barely ever getting REM sleep, we are SICK of it!

He's also started all this separation anxiety junk, which doesn't help! It's a total power struggle.

And a "closed-mouth whine", which would even make his sweet grandmothers wince with annoyance!
Good thing he's still cute!
(super underexposed, I know, but look at that face!)
We're figuring out creative ways to get things done while staying within about 5-10 feet of him. He gets really mad when he can see you and realizes that you're not right there with him.

This kid has had so many issues. I feel really bad for him, and part of me still insists there's something going on that we don't know about. No nurse or doctor gives us a second look. Are babies sometimes really just unhappy all the time and just inconsolable for no apparent reason? Even when they've had Tylenol and gripe water and have a full belly and clean diaper!?

We were making a list the other day. This poor kid has had:
colic
(until he was about 4 months old)
tracheomalacia
(underdeveloped trachea in infants that causes lung problems that they eventually grow out of; he just grew out of this a month or two ago)
an ear infection (at just 6 weeks old! Mitch was an ear tube baby, so this put us on red alert)
several colds
excema
(which showed up about 3 months ago)
chronic constipation
(that seems never to go away without Miralax and a suppository)
a random rash with no explanation
(we hadn't changed ANYTHING...they just told us to "let it happen again"...yuck!)
(this was taken during an oatmeal bath, after we got his rash under control. It was so bad that morning that we could barely look at him!)

All of these seem pretty common and unrelated. I'm just sick of all the ailments! My Nathan's miserable, he doesn't sleep, he forgets how to self-soothe when he's sick (because I just try to make him as comfy as possible, like the nurses have said to), and we don't feel like he has much of a life. At least not a fun one. After a couple weeks of feeling great, something else will pop up out of nowhere!

What happened to the great immune system nursing was supposed to give him!? And all my antibodies?

It doesn't help that he's been teething for the last 2 months, with no teeth in sight.

Should I be concerned, or did we just hit the lottery with this one!?
I can't help worrying all the time when something is ALWAYS showing up and going wrong!

"Family Habit Overhaul"

That's what we're trying to do. We have fallen into a funk since Nathan was born and we tried to get a handle on life with a kid. After almost seven months, we've realized all of that effort left behind a disorganized home and stressed-out parents! (Not to mention a Nathan who still won't sleep!)

As members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we feel it is our responsibility to always do certain things. Some of these things include studying the scriptures daily, praying as a family and on your own every day, and attending an LDS Temple regularly. The only one you are accountable for these things to is the Lord. It's a very personal commitment that can bring families closer to each other and to the Lord.

However, with busy school and work schedules, and learning how to be parents, we have fallen a bit behind in all of these things that are supposed to be habitual. We still feel close as a couple, but we've noticed something missing.

In addition to these things, we are lacking in more secular habits, like organization, scheduling, meal times, homework/study times, chore schedules, etc. We've pretty much been flying by the seat of our pants, which is pretty taxing on all of us! The most scheduled part of our day is Nathan's bedtime routine.

Here is the plan that Mitch and I came up with together today. This is going to be very hard on us, but it needs to be done in order for us to be productive. No more sleeping in (mostly trying to catch up for time we were up with Nathan during the night), and no more pajama days, which tend to happen (with me) a lot, since I only go to class at night and online.

This is our new schedule, starting Monday morning (May 23rd):
7:30 am--wake up & exercise
Two of my least favorite things, at my least favorite time!
8:00 am--showers for both of us
Sometimes I don't shower until Nathan's down for an afternoon nap; usually because that's the only time I can get to it! Doing it before he wakes up works too, though...
8:30 am--study the scriptures on our own
I'm not so good at this; Mitch is a pro.
9:30 am--breakfast together
Usually Mitch grabs breakfast to go on his way out the door, and I rarely eat it, which is a horrible habit when i'm nursing!
10:00 am--study the scriptures together
We'll share what we learned on our own or study something different, depending on what we want to get out of it.
11:00 am--off to school (Mitch) or online schoolwork (me)
This is our normal start time for the day. Since Nathan still goes to bed around 10:00-10:30, he usually sleeps until about this time in the morning.
4:oo-6:00 pm--"rest time" and dinner
This is when our brains get a rest and we get to watch tv, get on Facebook/Blogger, etc. And of course fix and eat dinner.
6:00 pm--any work or leftover schoolwork we need to do
This is about the time my night classes start, and I also work every once in awhile in the evenings for the Ticket Office on campus.
10:00 pm--plan the next day and have family prayer
This will give us the organization and "heads up" we need to orchestrate getting places on time during the day with one car, who watches Nathan when, etc.
10:15-10:30 pm--put Nathan down for bed
Eventually this will be an earlier time, but most of my classes go until 9 pm and I really don't want to miss bedtime with my little Nathan!
11:00 pm--our bedtime
This is a lot better than the 1:00-1:30 time we usually end up going to bed at. We just lose track of time while we try to hurry and get done everything we didn't accomplish that day!

And then it all starts over.

This is going to be hard, but we both need it.

It is very similar to the schedule that full-time missionaries from our Church follow. So, Mitch lived this every day for 2 years. Lots of members of our church follow it for years after their missions because it makes them feel very healthy.

I feel like sharing this will make us feel accountable to someone else to keep this goal. We're eventually going to implement some sort of chore chart and assign days to grocery shopping, laundry, etc. We understand that our schedule could change completely based on our school schedules. Sadly, school has to come first right now, and we have to work around it.

I will share our progress every once in awhile to let you all know how we're doing.
Then i'll share the goals that we've set to go along with this schedule, and how we're doing with them as well.

I'm still grumbling at the fact that I have to get up at 7:30 tomorrow! Ugh!! The last thing I will ever be is a morning person!

And, since a couple of you chose to read this far, you get a picture :o)
Our bald little Nathan is finally big and strong enough to sit in the front of the grocery cart! He loves it! When we put him in the front and buckle him in he holds on tight to the cart and gives us this cute, apprehensive smile!

One day he'll have hair! For now we call it "infant male pattern baldness."

It's finally spring!

We have been waiting, pretty much since Nathan was born, to play outside. And when you're born in Idaho in the beginning of November, that can be a pretty long wait.

But, when you finally get springtime to come and get to wiggle your baby toes in the grass for the first time, it can be really fun!
Or, you can hate it like Nathan did.
He didn't like it at all. I guess a lot of babies are like this, right?
We loved his little adidas shirt and sweatpants, though. It's a very "Mitch" outfit!
And then on Sunday he was wearing my favorite outfit, and it was pretty again, so we had to head back out! I'm sure our neighbors think we're "those people" that take billions of pictures of their one kid everyday...they should see my memory card!

This is as close to a smile as I can ever get:
We love the dark blue shoes in that last picture...$1 for leather Baby Gap shoes at our thrift store! Score!Now I need to learn how to edit pictures so I can make these look all fancy!

Six Months and Worrying

WOW...Nathan is six months old today! (November 2nd)...it's amazing how fast the last six months have flown by...and how fast our love for him grows every day!

That also means that my sweet little great-grandma, his great-great-grandma, is 98 1/2 years old...Nathan was born on her 98th birthday! She is awesome.

Nathan has learned how to:

-roll over and over to explore things and get closer to toys
But occasionally forgets how, leading to screaming fits of too much tummy time!

-make hilarious, throaty noises that he repeats over and over again...
(that GASP!-y noise that gets everyone's attention) Tonight we were "those people" in Walgreen's with the crazy noisy child that wouldn't stop gasping at every new aisle! I didn't know Walgreen's was that fun!

-reach out for someone/something
It's so cute seeing those two little hands and ten little fingers try to grab something!

-pull hair like a champ
It took him this long to find and start pulling mom's short hair!

-sit up on his own for about 20 seconds at a time...woo hoo!
After that he needs his boppy for support :o)

-eat rice cereal like a champ, whether it's mixed with breastmilk, water, or Pedialyte
This week we start baby food! Woo hoo, go peas!!
(Nathan and his best friend, Burton, going for a ride in our car)
I'm sure there's more, I just can't remember it! This kiddo hasn't mastered sleeping well yet...he occasionally sleeps more than 4 hours at a time, but most nights he's still up every 3-4 hours wanting food. There's more to life than sleep...right!?
Anyway, on to the next subject...worrying.

I keep convincing Mitch that it's normal for moms to worry more than necessary. He doesn't believe, and thinks i'm going to have an aneurysm at any second.

I usually worry about one thing in particular, which is a very silly worry that I'm, for some reason, consumed in.

I am so worried that the next baby will have to come by c-section.
I know, crazy, right!?
At this point, Nathan's next sibling's going to be, like, 4 years younger than him!!

Plus, in order for me not to be considered "high risk" and give my incision time to heal, it is "strongly suggested" that I wait at least 2 years from the time he was born to get pregnant.

You got it, doc!

VBACs are 75% successful. Those are good odds. My body didn't have a single problem getting fully dilated, etc., it was all Nathan laying on that dang cord. There is no reason I shouldn't be able to have a normal birth with the next baby, in fact, my doctor said I was one of the best VBAC candidates he'd ever seen.

And there is no reason I should be worrying (and losing what sleep I get) because of this.

Mitch thinks i'm a basket case, but baby #2 will determine a lot! He/she will determine:
-if I have to have a c-section with every baby from then on (after 2, it's c-sections all the way!)
-how many kids I can have (after 2, they judge it one at a time...you could be told in surgery that you can't have any more kids...)
-how every recovery will be from then on (I've been told by countless women who have c-sections every time that every recovery is harder than the last).

Now, for those of you that i've advised that a c-section is not the end of the world, DO NOT LOSE FAITH IN ME!! It really isn't!! My recovery was a breeze, I remember every minute of that day (not a foggy narcotic-head here!), and I, personally, LOVED the extra time in the hospital. Ask my mom; she was there to see how easy it was.

This is just an irrational mom worry. A rut I'm stuck in.

Has anyone out there had to have all c-sections, or just one, and can give me good advice?

Even if it's, "yes, you should worry..." I want to hear it. I want permission to worry or not worry. I know it makes no sense, but it will make me feel better!

I feel cheated out of the "normal" experience. I labored all day and got to a 7-8 before the epidural, and 9 1/2 before they called for a c-section, all to earn the satisfaction of seeing that baby. And I didn't get to meet him for 2 hours. I know it doesn't sound like much time, but everyone got to see him before me. Dad, countless doctors, nurses, pediatric heart expert guys, and no mom. If it wouldn't have been an emergency, he would've stayed right there in the OR, but they whisked him away to NICU to check out that heart, and I pretty much demanded Mitch follow them, that I was fine. Our poor baby was alone, and I hadn't even seen him yet!

Yet, I still feel, after all of this worrying, that nothing could make me want it any other way. That c-section made me trust doctors and procedures...everything I was scared of before. The doctor that swooped in and helped our midwife save the day was SO patient and only opted for a c-section when he knew it was the only option. He gave me so much time to try for a normal birth, I just couldn't get him here quick enough (ooh! Another tinge of guilt!)
We got a perfectly healthy baby when he had every sign of congenital heart failure. Mitch says he was so alert and aware, even after being drugged to the max! We had a great recovery. He's been awesome (except the colic...) every day of these last six months!
I'm so glad Mitch took this picture. I felt so nasty after everything, but these couple of minutes that I got to be with him in recovery were just priceless. Look at that scrunched up little face snuggling up to his mama! I love this boy :o)